No longer striving for perfection, mastery or excellence might just be the solution for the Ben Frikkert disaster. My operating intention has just shifted and recreated itself as...wait for it.... COMPLETION.
Yes, my new focus, though still painfully informed by my addiction to achieving new personal bests, is now merely just getting through to the end of this intensely irritating pattern! I do think it will be worth the effort - though I might just "quit" again in the days ahead. : )