Following instructions in tatting and in life - not my forte. Here was yet another example of how this often leads me to unemployment or wasted thread.
Not only had I done the pattern wrongly in the fourth round, but when I started to snip away at the fourth row... yup, into the third row I cut - and cut..... Ohhhhh, the language.
I had myself convinced that tatting was a dumb thing to do and I should just chuck the motif and all my thread and shuttles and everything. I felt I should just never tat again! What a mood!
Mr. G calmed me down. He gallantly shared his toys with me and we played for a bit till I was a better person. Quite maturely, (for a change) I put the piece away till today, coming to whatever senses I might still possess and sat quietly fortified with very strong coffee and got to fixing the mess.
The good news is that I cannot even find the part I fixed! And I was truly dreading fixing it as I am so intimidated by the joining at the end of the row. Always. But since I am getting lots of practice, I was able to do it after only two un-tats!
Seeing where I had gone astray, I promised myself that I will READ the pattern before plunging ahead. I am not rushing.
I am tatting zen:
Round 4, Mystery Doily